First Day of School: 2024

Jackson and Dodger looking good on the first day of school. The ferns…not so much.

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Our Family in 2024

Photo by Jennifer Tidwell

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Humility as Seeing the True Self

I came across this yesterday in The Cloud of Unknowing, a 14th century spiritual classic.

Humility is seeing yourself as you really are.

Pride is a facet of the false self. It is to see yourself falsely. In our pride, we set ourselves up as little “gods” and “goddesses” over our lives, calling all the shots, sovereign in our rule. According to the Bible, this is the ancient temptation, going all the way back to Eden. We are always tempted to elevate ourselves to this god-like status.

But humility is seeing through the false self. Here we accept the reality of the true self; we acknowledge who we really are without pretense. We acknowledge our limitations, our faults, our great need. Jesus begins the Sermon on the Mount by saying, “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Humility is the first step in receiving the Kingdom. It is seeing ourselves in our sin and seeing Jesus as our Savior.

This kind of humility is transformative. But it begins with seeing yourself as you really are.

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A Violent Kingdom

Francois Fenelon was a French Catholic theologian and writer who lived in the late 1600s. He had quite a career, serving as a priest, a missionary, and as a tutor to the grandson of King Louis XIV. His spiritual writings convey an uncommon richness of depth. He seems especially interested in helping his readers understand the singular work of the cross.

As he encourages his brethren to embrace the folly of the cross, Fenelon writes:

You cannot give place to the world, to your passions or your laziness. Words are not enough to claim the kingdom of God. It takes strength and courage and violence. You must violently resist the tides of the world. Violently give up all that holds you back from God. Violently turn your will over to God to do His will alone.

This violence is what I pray you will come to know, for how else will you know anything of the life of the Lord Jesus?

Such rhetoric might sound strange in our ears, particularly coming from a spiritual sage. What does Fenelon mean when he speaks of violently resisting the tides of the world?

Certainly his meaning is bound up with the word “resist.” He sees opposition to the kingdom of the world as an imperative of discipleship to Jesus. To say that such resistance should be carried out “violently” simply couches this in terms of spiritual warfare. Our enemy would prefer that we not consider our opposition to his worldly counter-kingdom in any sort of active sense. No, his goal is to lull us to sleep, to anesthetize us to any such notions of taking up arms in this cosmic struggle.

Thus, Fenelon says that we need strength and courage and violence.

I’ve given it some thought and I agree with Fenelon. While eschewing earthly / physical violence, we would be well served to consider what a violent rejection of the tides of the world would look like in our own lives. Don’t just give up that which hinders you from your God, Fenelon says. Violently give it up.

The kingdom of heaven suffers attack from violent people (Matt. 11:12). Fenelon encourages God’s people to a reciprocal act of “violence” as we reject the counter-kingdom of the world. May we do so with violence.

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Pedro’s Story

I don’t think I will ever forget Pedro’s story:

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Baja 2024

We had a great time on our Baja mission trip this year. I especially enjoyed the opportunity to preach on the theme of “Returning to Your First Love.” I’m grateful to say that we had several restorations and one baptism. Praise the Lord for His grace in calling us to come home to Him!

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Happy Birthday, Abby Kate and Joshua

Happy 20th birthday, Abby Kate and Joshua!

Abby Kate is hard working and loyal. She has a huge heart for people who are hurting, which is the driving force behind her decision to study nursing. Joshua is fun loving and fierce. He loves to compete and you’re always glad to have him on your team. They share a heart for service and a love for the Lord. I hope that your 20s are your best decade yet. Love y’all!

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Fireworks in San Diego

Watching the Independence Day fireworks at the San Diego Bay with Abby Kate.

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Torrey Pines

Jackson and I had a fun time hiking the trail at Torrey Pines State Natural Reserve today. Probably should’ve worn better shoes, though!

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Mustaches in STL

Joshua and I decided to bring our mustaches to Busch Stadium! So glad I could do this with him. Getting away like this, even for a day or two, is a special treat. And we witnessed a great win by our favorite team. Go Cards!

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