Thirteen

Thirteen

Last night I found some old family pictures, photos from my childhood. There’s a picture in there of me when I was about five years old. I’m sitting in front of this pull down background of an orange-hued sunset with a few random tree branches closer up and out of focus. Having that picture made is one of those early childhood memories that I can still recall; I remember my mother telling me to put on the clothes she’d laid out for me on the bed; I remember objecting to wearing “Sunday clothes” on a Saturday; and I remember holding her hand as we walked in to our local K-Mart where, strangely enough, a photographer was plying his trade with a pull down background of an orange-hued sunset….

As I looked at that picture, it was this weird sort of feeling. I recognized the kid in the photo — it’s me, after all, and I have the memory to validate it — but at the same time, the memory seems almost too distant, outside of myself. It’s as if I know that’s me in the picture, but I can’t remember what life was like in that moment. It feels like me, but then again, it really doesn’t because the kid in the picture ISN’T me, at least not the version of myself that I am today. There’s no way that kid in that picture could’ve ever known who he would become — who he was becoming. He can’t see all the twists and turns, positive or negative, that will shape him in the next 30 years. He’s just sitting there, in clothes his Momma picked out for him, grinning from ear to ear.

The same kind of feelings came over me last night as I looked at some of our wedding photos. Today, Sunny and I have been married 13 years and I don’t even have words to use to tell you what a blessing she has been to my life. But as I looked back over those pictures, it was a little like looking at the orange-hued sunset photos. I remember that day; in fact, I remember it in great detail. But I look at the guy in the picture — the guy who has been married to Sunny for all of 30 minutes, smiling at the wedding reception — and I almost don’t know who that guy is anymore. Because being married to Sunny has become such an integral part of my identity, I almost can’t remember what it was like before we were together. I think that’s part of what the Bible is talking about when it speaks of two becoming one.

The guy in the picture could’ve never foreseen the depth of his wife’s love for him.

He has no idea where his life is going to take him; all he has is the promise of this little blonde girl to go through life right by his side.

They can’t yet see themselves in their little cramped apartment that first year they were married. They can’t see the night they had to return a few wedding gifts in order to buy pots and pans to cook a meal at home. They can’t see themselves taking off to Baltimore on a whim, just to see a baseball game. They can’t see themselves on their knees, praying for direction when other opportunities came their way. They can’t see themselves staring at an ultrasound screen as the doctor turns around and says, “I think I see two.” They can’t see themselves bawling their eyes out as they stand around the isolettes that hold their children in the NICU, can’t yet see the joy of finally taking these babies home for the first time. They can’t see the birth of another son after another hard pregnancy; the loving embrace of a church family; ball games and vacations; moving homes and buying a mini-van; saying goodbye to old friends and making new ones through the years.

They can’t see all of that in that moment. Thirteen years later, I’m amazed at what we’ve been through. But the one constant through it all has been the promise of that little blonde girl. She stood on a stage in front of everyone we knew and loved and told them that she’d always be mine. And even though I couldn’t have ever dreamed the ways in which that promise would be fulfilled, I know one thing: I’m eternally grateful that she was willing to love me in that moment, that she’s willing to love me still.

Sunny Anne, here’s to 13 wonderful years together. I’ll tell you today the same thing I told you then: there are lots of things I can’t promise you, but I can promise to always be here, to always love you.

And that will never change.

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Nouwen on Anger

I’ve been thinking about this quote lately:

Anger is what we use when we run out of love.

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Ten Years Later

Ten years ago, Sunny and I made the decision to move to Huntsville, Alabama. We’d spent the first three years of our marriage in Kingsport, Tennessee. I worked as the youth minister for the Northeast Church of Christ there, which was an incredibly rich experience. Sunny and I moved to Kingsport a week after our wedding in 1999 and the people there nurtured us and supported us in more ways than we even realize. I still thank God for their influence in my life.
By 2002, we began to feel God was calling us in a different direction. It became evident to us that Sunny would have a hard time finding a full time teaching position in Sullivan County. I’d just started taking graduate classes at Lipscomb and, even though I had always wanted to preach someday, I wasn’t ready to transition out of youth ministry altogether. God opened up an opportunity for us at Madison Academy, a K-12 private Christian school here in Madison. The school was looking for a campus minister and a 3rd grade teacher and we were intrigued. Our best friends were here in Huntsville, which only added to the prospect of a move. After much prayer and deliberation, we accepted the offer and moved our little family of two to north Alabama.
I remember unloading the U-Haul truck that July at our little apartment. It was so humid here…I thought we were going to die! But we adapted to the weather quickly as we also adapted to a new calendar: the school year schedule. As a youth minister, I worked plenty of late nights and didn’t feel very compelled to arrive at the office before 9am most days. Needless to say, the 6:15am alarm was the definition of “rude awakening” with my new schedule. But God used that discipline to hone me in some powerful ways. I began teaching the New Testament Epistles to my students and my teaching load helped familiarize me with the parts of the Bible that articulated the Christian faith so well. I taught Romans and I was captivated by the theological density of Paul’s arguments. I taught Galatians and I was blown away by Paul’s outright contempt for any Gospel other than Jesus Christ. I taught Philippians and I was amazed at the transcendent reality of Paul’s joy while writing from prison. Leading each day’s chapel assembly helped shape me as a worship leader. And the students…each day I’d listen to their stories, laugh at their jokes, tear up at their struggles, and swell with pride as I got to know them better. Sunny’s students brought her incredible joy, too, and she felt professional fulfillment unlike any other time in her life to that point. God seemed to be validating this move at every turn.
One of the byproducts of our move was that we were “free agents” on the church scene for the first time as a married couple. Since our good friends were deeply immersed in the Mayfair church family — Corey, my friend, was the church’s youth minister — we knew we’d visit there first. Although we visited one or two other churches along the way, we quickly settled on Mayfair as our church home. We placed membership and quickly got to work alongside our friends in the youth ministry. I tell people that we started blowing up balloons and ordering pizza and hanging out at devotionals…mainly because we loved our friends and wanted to be near them. But we also realized that many of my students at school were involved in the youth ministry at church, so the relationships we enjoyed in both places took on an even deeper significance. Before long, someone asked if we’d be interested in working with the youth ministry on a part-time basis. We didn’t bother to tell them we would’ve done it for free! That part time employment led to an interim position through the next summer — mission trips, church camp, the typical youth ministry summer stuff. When the next school year began, somebody asked if we’d still be interested in part time work — fall retreat, Huddles, etc. Before the next summer rolled around, they asked if we could help with full time hours in the summer months. And eventually, somebody just said, “Why don’t you just come on board full time here?” And eventually, we did.
God’s plans for us here in Huntsville included three little ones: Abby Kate and Joshua were born in 2004, right about the time I left Madison Academy to work full time at church. Three years later, Jackson came along and we became a party of five. I transitioned out of full time youth ministry in 2007 and took on a new role as Mayfair’s Associate Minister working alongside Gary Bradley. I really had no idea how richly God intended to bless my life through this when it happened. But even now, years later, I find it hard to put into words what Gary has meant to me. I think I’ve been given just a little glimpse of what Timothy must’ve felt toward Paul, this spiritual father in the faith who encouraged him and helped equip him for service and ministry. Gary has been a mentor, a role model, a friend, a confidante, and — the highest compliment I could pay him — a preacher of God’s truth in my life. I know I’ll never finish soaking up what God intends for me to learn from this godly man. I’m just thankful he has been and continues to be a mighty presence in my life.
Looking back over these 10 years, I have nothing but thanksgiving in my heart for this place and for my God. His faithfulness has surely been extended to us in ways that we could’ve never even dreamed of when we arrived here so many years ago. I’m blessed to serve a church whose mission I believe in wholeheartedly. I’m blessed to serve alongside people who constantly encourage and challenge me. I’m blessed by the family God has entrusted to my care: by these three little souls who have scarcely begun to recognize how deeply they are loved. I’m beyond blessed to share this journey with my best friend and the best person I’ve ever known, my wife, Sunny. And I’m blessed to know the goodness of a God whose love endures forever. In all things, may He be praised, both now and forevermore.

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Philippians 4

Reading for Friday, Aug 10: Philippians 4

I love the way Paul addresses these believers in ch4: “Therefore, my brothers, whom I love and long for, my joy and crown…” (v1). His love for these brothers and sisters leaps off the page. He longs to be in their presence. They bring him joy, they are his crowning achievement. This is a snapshot of the kind of relationships we enjoy in God’s Kingdom.

“I entreat Euodia and I entreat Syntyche to agree in the Lord,” (v2). Strife and discord has plagued the body and Paul takes this moment to gently rebuke these sisters. This is no idyllic picture of Kumbayah Christianity. This is real life stuff…arguments and disagreements have taken their toll on these sisters. It’s not that conflict is some foreigner to the body. But Paul exhorts these sisters to rise above these issues for the sake of the gospel.

“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice,” (v4). Joy is one of the the hallmarks of the Christian faith. It’s more than exuberance; true joy is irrepressible faith played out in a variety of circumstances. Paul sees this joy as the source of Christian reasonableness (v5), the cure to anxiety (v6), the key to prayer (v6), and the path to peace (v7), the kind of experience that transcends knowledge and understanding. God’s peace is a knowing deeper than information; it is a place of abiding trust in the arms of God.

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things,” (v8). Along with ch2, Paul says much in Philippians about the mind of Christ that should indwell us. In short, we are to fixate on the things of God. Let these be your obsessions, your ultimate aim.

When this happens, we, like Paul, learn contentment in all circumstances (v11). This is the meaning behind the oft-misquoted verse: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” (v13). What we typically mean by this is, “I can do great things with Jesus by my side.” And this is true…it’s just not exactly what Paul is saying here. What he means is that he can face any kind of circumstance because Jesus is his source of strength. Whether it’s being brought low or abounding in plenty (v12), Paul says he can do all of this because of Jesus.

And the same is true of us.

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MLB 2012: Dog Days

It’s been forever since I’ve made a baseball related post. In fact, I may not have posted anything since my early season picks. But I have been following the MLB season closely this year (as always) and I have a few thoughts as we enter the final stretch of another great season.

  • One of the great stories of this year has to be the Nationals. Strong starting pitching has fueled this meteoric rise to the top of the National League. (This club has come a long way from their “Washington Natinals” days.) I can’t believe that they’re actually going to follow through on this plan to shut down Stephen Strasburg. Limit his innings; skip a start or two…sure. But total shut down? We’ll see. Bryce Harper has flourished because he hasn’t been asked to carry the club. He’s been an important complementary piece. I like the way this club is built, especially now that Drew Storen is back and pitching in high leverage late inning spots. If they take the training wheels off of Strasburg, this team could be playing deep into October.
  • For the record, I did call the White Sox resurgence back in April. (Don’t believe me? Click here.) The recipe has been solid starting pitching, anchored by Chris Sale and Jake Peavy, and a top flight offense. The addition of Kevin Youkilis makes an already tough lineup that much deeper. And having Good Alex Rios show up this season always helps. Adam Dunn is your Comeback Player of the Year. The Tigers are nipping at their heels, but I like Chicago to at least stay in the hunt until the very end.
  • It’s crazy that a 3rd place team could end up winning the World Series this year. I know the powers-that-be think that they’ve really hit on something special with this additional Wild Card spot, but I remain unconvinced. Of course, I was late to the party on the whole Wild Card thing to begin with, so this is a “purist’s” perspective.
  • Did anybody see the O’s playing this well for this long? And how about the Pirates? It’s been 40 years since both of these clubs were relevant at the same time. Although I’m always rooting for my Cards to make the playoffs, if they don’t, you’d better believe I’ll be rooting for Pittsburgh all the way, baby.
  • What can you say about Mike Trout? When the Angels signed Albert Pujols, they thought they were inking a perennial MVP candidate. Little did they know that the 2012 AL MVP was already on their roster. Trout has absolutely been the offensive catalyst this club needed. He can truly do it all: hit, run, throw, hit for power. And he looks like he’ll be a fixture in the Anaheim OF for the next decade. Impressive.
  • Red Sox fans, looking like a third straight postseason that you’ll have to sit out. I tried to tell you. Verbatim, on this site, I told you back in March: “Personally, I think the Valentine selection is a train wreck waiting to happen.” The only question is how long management decides to deny that this whole situation is broken. Expect Josh Beckett and Jon Lester to be pitching for different clubs when spring training begins. It’s a changing of the guard in the AL East, folks. Toronto and Tampa are going to be relevant for a long time and the Yankees are always going to be the Yankees. Right now, the Sox have the 4th most talented roster in the division. Ouch.
  • Ben Sheets? What sort of Faustian deal did you strike to lead to such a resurgence? Omar Daal would like to know.
  • No baseball column by yours truly would be complete without an honest assessment of my beloved Cards. This season has been full of pleasant surprises. Lance Lynn has emerged as a solid starting pitcher. Allen Craig has become a force in the middle of the lineup. Yadier Molina is following the Ozzie Smith career path to offensive relevance to add to his defensive wizardry. Carlos Beltran and Matt Holliday have turned in their typically productive seasons at the plate and Adam Wainwright looks fully recovered from last year’s injury. But injuries have popped up, as we knew they would with a team this brittle: Chris Carpenter and Lance Berkman have been virtual non-factors this year and Jamie Garcia has also been bitten by the bug. As of this writing, we’re only 3.5 games out of the wild card. With some of our injuries, I’ll take that. This team has a proven pedigree of playing well down the stretch. But it’ll take a solid run to make up ground on Atlanta and Pittsburgh. Maybe by the time of my next baseball post, one of those two clubs will have faded.
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Philippians 3

Reading for Thursday, Aug 9: Philippians 3

Philippians 3 is one of the most lyrical chapters in the Bible. Paul takes us to lofty heights as he describes the act of forsaking earthly treasure for the sake of knowing Christ. “Whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ.” (v7). These “losses” pale in comparison to the richness of our inheritance through Christ — “the power of his resurrection” made known in us. But this is not merely eloquent, flowery talk: Paul also acknowledges the painful reality of suffering (v10) and straining (v13) in the flesh. Paul matches the lofty grandeur of God’s promissory language with a humble recognition of his own imperfection. “Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own,” (v12). The pain, the suffering, and the strain is mitigated by the truth of Christ’s adoption — He has made me His own!

Armed with this truth, we can press forward “toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus,” (v14). We are mindful of those who would oppose us as we journey, of the “enemies of the cross” (v18). But we remain undeterred, for “our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself,” (v20-21).

Amen.

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Philippians 2: The Mind of Christ

Reading for Wednesday, Aug 8: Philippians 2

Philippians 2 contains one of the most beautiful Christological passages in the New Testament. After imploring us to have the same mind as Christ, Paul offers a lyrical description of the character of our Lord. Many scholars believe verses 6-11 were part of an early Christian hymn about Jesus. Look at the theological underpinnings of this text:
– v6, Jesus is of the same nature or essence as God the Father, yet He is also differentiated from Him.
-v6, Jesus does not consider equality with God to be part of His role to play.
-v7, In the Incarnation, Jesus identifies with humanity, humbly assuming the role of a servant.
-v8, Part of this humility is adopting the posture of obedience. The Son of God remains obedient to the will of the Father, even to the point of death on the cross.
-v9, Because of this, God the Father has exalted Him greatly, giving Him the life-giving name, the name above all names.
-v10, Now the name of Jesus reigns supreme. Every knee bows before this great name — knees on earth and in heaven. The cosmic scope here is breathtaking. The entire created order is acknowledging the sovereignty of Jesus.
-v11, And in the end, all lips will make the final confession of Christ’s lordship. This is the glory of God.

Paul’s immediate takeaway is that these believers should continue to “shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life,” (v15-16). We understand that this same God who was at work in Christ Jesus is now at work in us (v13) “both to will and to work for his good pleasure.” This radically transforms my understanding of my own life. Your life and mine can become vehicles for the power of God — if we will follow the example of Jesus.

This begins when we heed Paul’s call from v5: “Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus.”

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Philippians 1

Reading for Tuesday, Aug 7: Philippians 1

Paul writes this little letter from prison — yet he continues to use the words “joy” and “rejoice” to describe life in Christ. Paul continually amazes us with his ability to see beyond to higher realities. His chains are only temporary, for “what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel” (v12). Oh to have this kind of perspective!

Paul’s prayer in v9-11 serves as a thesis statement for this correspondence: “And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ to the glory and praise of God.”

Paul is most interested in the proclamation of Christ (v18). For him, every event, every moment in his life, holds fresh possibility for Christ to be proclaimed. Paul’s life is given in service to Jesus: “For me to live is Christ.” But when this gift is poured out, the author of life will be faithful to keep His promise: “…but to die is gain.” Paul’s desire is to depart, to be with Jesus, the source of true life. But until that day comes, Paul is focused on living the Jesus life before the world. “Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ,” (v27).

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Hebrews 13 – Let Brotherly Love Continue

Reading for Monday, Aug 6: Hebrews 13

“Let brotherly love continue,” (v1). I love this verse. I came across it early on in my ministry and it’s been one of those verses that’s been a constant companion for me throughout the years. Let’s face it: church is made up of broken people — many of them saved by the grace of Jesus, but broken all the same. And in that brokenness, we do things we shouldn’t. We gossip. We lie. We get jealous. We get all passive aggressive toward each other. Or sometimes, we just get outright aggressive! No matter. We act in ways that are unbecoming of followers of Jesus.

And so we need these constant reminders, don’t we? We need to be reminded that God is good and that His love endures forever. And the church stands as a living and breathing testimony to that goodness and that eternal love. One of the ways we testify to God’s enduring love is by practicing our own version of it — by letting brotherly love continue to grow in our midst. May we never forget the loving impulse of our Father in heaven, the decision to create in the first place, His willful act of creating space for us to exist — all born out of His great love for us before He even created us. And may that recognition of God’s loving impulse come near to us in our daily interactions: as we deal with fussy neighbors and family members who irritate us and lazy employees and dishonest employers and unruly children and emotionally needy friends….through it all may we be formed by these simple words that declare an eternal truth. God’s love reigns eternal. May it be so in our hearts and in our lives. Amen.

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Hebrews 12

Reading for Friday, Aug 3: Hebrews 12

On the heels of the great “faith” chapter, the Hebrew writer moves back to the contemporary experience of his audience, but he imports all that he’s mentioned in ch11. It seems that the stories of faith — from Abraham to Moses, to Gideon, Barak, Samson, etc. — are intended to serve as a template for understanding our own lives. We bring these narratives with us as we ourselves journey along by faith. This is what he means when he says, “Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses…” (v1). We aren’t navigating through all alone, but instead we are joined by a throng of faithful witnesses, each one calling out to us from the history of their own existence, “Continue to run with endurance and perseverance.” And all of this is because of Jesus, “author and perfecter” of our faith (v2). It begins with Jesus, it ends with Jesus, it’s all about Jesus. This is the story of faith that is being written in us.

The content of this story preoccupies the remainder of this chapter. “We share in his holiness,” (v10), even through discipline. “Strive for peace with everyone,” (v14) — in our red state / blue state, tinderbox culture of “inflammatory statements” and political correctness, this charge reverberates as sage counsel. “See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God,” (v15). This is our calling. “…that no root of bitterness springs up…that no one is sexually immoral or unholy,” (v15-16). Are we up to the challenge? The Hebrew writer anticipates our pushback: “Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.” (v26).

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